IVF Cycle So-Far Recap:
May 7: I was directed to take birth control pills from May 7-16, in an apparent effort to either curtail an immaculate conception, or supress the ovaries. Alright, it was the latter, but I’m prone to create fantasy, a byproduct of my keen ability to disassociate. Like from the fear of this not working! It will be a great little skill for make-believe play time with the kid!
May 12: I forgot to order my Lupron which was to begin on May 14 so instead I’m instructed to remain on BCPs until May 23.
May 21: Begin the Lupron injections and dexmethasone pills. Very much a part of this process, the Beloved does the injections and lays out my pills. I have to watch my behavior now, particularly around shot-time. Especially given the recent query thrown my way “When do I start giving you the shots in your butt?”
May 31: Anyway, up to this point, I’ve been hesitant to write anything specific about the process because that means this process is REAL! And if it’s REAL then my FEARS might come true! Like this morning’s supression check: I only have 8 antral follicles. That’s it! And as a fucking bonus, I have 2 cysts. Two. One on each side. My E2 (estrogen) level is 158. Which is high. They usually like to see it below 50 which indicates little activity. Rather than aspirate the cysts, we’re going to double my Lupron (ovarian/estrogen activity supression drugs) and check back in a week. This MAY or MAY NOT resolve the cysts, but it’s certainly less invasive. If they’ve shrunk, we’ll start stims on the 9th. If not, well, we either supress another week, or cancel the cycle and start over with the next one.
I’m not supposed to stress. Uh, ok, whatever. But seriously, I’ve received several encouraging and chuckley notes from some sherpas and it is helping me feel better about all this. Here’s a sampling:
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There’s still a chance to completely turn this around
- Try to relax and realize this is in god’s hands and you will end up with a baby. And likewise… don’t believe EVERYTHING on the internet 🙂
- May I suggest cutting your hair into a mohawk and piercing your nose.
- It is only natural that you would be scared but the most important thing right now is for you to stay positive. So if that means turning off your computer (WHAT!?) and ignoring the internet…then do it. Science is science but faith also plays an important role. I love you and I will continue to keep you and your follicles in my prayers.
- It’s in God’s hands and he knows the desires of your heart.
And Oh, and we ordered our donor. He is 6’1″, 195 lb with brown wavy hair, hazel/green eyes, with whipped cream and a cherry on top!
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May 31, 2007 at 12:18 pm
ethansmama
The whipped cream and cherry on top is especially important in the baby making process. Hopefully the new updated plan will work out and you can go forward.
May 31, 2007 at 12:36 pm
meg
Woah I feel special… A comment of mine made your blog 🙂 Seriously though Rachel, I am still very hopeful this will all work for you THIS time!!! I have you in our thoughts as always.
May 31, 2007 at 1:01 pm
Michell
I am sending all kinds of positive wishes and hopeful thoughts to you that this cycle will work for you. I’m sorry that so far it’s not going as planned but I really do hope that the additional Lupron works and you get a BFP with this IVF cycle. Oh, and I like the donor with whipped cream and cherry on top. That’s a nice touch.
May 31, 2007 at 1:17 pm
Deena
Ra~
Like you said before, this TTC is a circus!!!! What a bonus, huh? Two cysts, thank you very much!
I’m sorry this is not going as planned, but everything will settle down and this will happen for you.
YOU WILL BE A MOTHER!!!!!
May 31, 2007 at 6:45 pm
kittenroar5
This sucks. I’m so so sorry. Other than that I have nothing useful to say, except… is it too late to have a drink?
June 1, 2007 at 12:51 am
chelle1464
Hopeitworksoutforyou!!
Your sherpas rock, btw!
June 1, 2007 at 7:11 am
Aradia
The mista-man sounds delish! May your cycts go away and a baby find your uterus and stay. I do not know what compelled me to rhyme all that. It’s way too early to be up! I”m cheering for ya!
June 1, 2007 at 8:20 am
Becca93
Seriously, we could make a killing on some completely safe pill that makes baby-waiting seem to go by in a flash. Also…
Dear cysts,
Go away.
Sincerely,
me
June 2, 2007 at 7:30 am
ibcheryl
It sounds like you are well on your way. I am sure that things will work out for you. I cannot understand how some one can say “just relax” or “don’t worry”. That is total bull shit and natural. 🙂